09.30.05
The closest I’ll ever get to emo
I meant to finish Half-Life 2 this week and write a little review of it (I’m actually pretty positive about it despite the contents of my last entry), but something came up. The TNM alpha. Christ, I didn’t realize it’d take up this much time. Whenever I fix a bug, two new ones pop up. And out of every 10 bugs, one is too difficult for myself to fix and I need the help of Lawrence or Shane. I’ve been staying up till 4 each night this week working on the mod, I think I must’ve spent the equivalent of a week’s full-time work on it.
With this mod on my CV, I better get a bloody job when I’m done with my government service.
Working so much on a mod and only leaving the house once a day to get the groceries isn’t exactly beneficial for my love life though. I need a job so I can meet somebody. I’m not even considering going clubbing or anything like that, I’m looking for something steady, and you don’t find that in a club. I can wait though, I’ve been single for 15 months now, I can handle a few more. But seriously, I like working on TNM, but I don’t like being pathetic. And it’s kinda pathetic to spend your life like this, at home, between educations, unemployed, life dedicated to your hobby. I might be building model trains and it wouldn’t be any more pathetic (Three sentences, three uses of the word “pathetic” - the reason for the title of this entry should be rather apparent by now). I’m looking forward to starting on that conscientious objector work (finally found the right translation, heh). Only 13 days left now.
Anyway, soon as we get this TNM alpha together, I’m finishing Half-Life 2 so I can rant a bit about it here. Don’t expect serious games journalism though. There are better places to find such things.
